I played this game with him for 2 years. We had kept it PG-13 for two years. Two years of “us” not having sex ‘on the strength of me’ as he called it. And one random date-night, when nothing we scheduled actually went as planned...
I have to STAY BUSY. And this won’t be going out more or spending money on food and even more clothing. It’s a busyness that goes beyond my day job. It’s a busyness that helps validate God’s love in my life.
If you are sensitive to unfiltered TRUTH. DO NOT READ THIS. I woke up this morning in a panic. I always do. I face so much anxiety that I don’t know how to handle it. You see, I am 31 years old and have never known the joy of the Lord. PEACE is fleeting … Continue reading UNFILTERED: 10/1/2016
So lemme tell you guys how I played myself…. For months I have been “crushing” on my pastor’s son! I pay attention to what he’s wearing, where he is in the sanctuary, who he’s conversing with, etc. Seriously, straight middle school/high school shenanigans! To be perfectly transparent (which is the norm when it comes to … Continue reading How I played myself…
June 1, 2016 Tonight is proving to be challenging. After loads of frustration in getting two inspiration sandals, I decided not to show up 30 minutes late for bible study. Changing my Wednesday night plans, I picked up 3 honey butter croissants from Cheddars, a BK Whopper Jr. and jumped back on the interstate. Locked … Continue reading Daily Debriefing: 6.1.2106
When I was 18 years old I met someone who was spiritually stronger than me. After years of dating me (and really doing everything the wrong way), he came to me one night and said that he "had never been so convicted in his life". Things changed immediately after that. Our relationship was one of those things.
I am tired of being celibate. There is really no other way to say it. Here’s the background: I was practicing celibacy for 6 years. 6 LONG YEARS. The entire time I struggled in dating because even when you meet “Christian men” for some reason the celibacy talk never goes well. Anyway, just … Continue reading When all you want to do is say YES…
Lots of stuff can be PLEASUREABLE, but it doesn’t give you the POWER that most women yearn for--The power that all women need. Knowing more of Christ is the only thing that does that.
So, Last night I was hungry for talk-time. Having a typical “woman-like-moment” I wanted him to communicate with me. And since we both make things rather plain I told him early on: “hey, we have been passing time on the phone lately, but we definitely haven’t been talking.” He agreed. So last night, I pulled. … Continue reading Phone Chats w/an Un-Believer
I call him Gideon because like his namesake he questions more than he quests. Sometimes in dating relationships a woman wants immediate action. She doesn't want loads of questions and inferences. Keep her confident in you. She wants to know that you’ve got things covered.